He pauses, trying to think of what he was going to say.
'...I was going to say just imagine it's me, but I don't know if I want that or not. Might be worse.'
He can't think about Random actually doing it. Just can't. And explaining this next thing will be hard enough.
'If you write...'
Once again, he curses his lack of eloquence.
'...it'll be like having you for a moment and then you'll be gone again. And I'll want to know what you're doing with her but I can't stand to hear it, and it'll just make it worse. Better that you go and...fuck it, I don't know. What do you think? Won't it be worse for you to be reminded of me like that every day? Don't you want to go and keep the charade up and not get distracted?'
It could be that Random'll go and he'll wish he hadn't said that, would give anything to hear from him. But maybe not. He has no idea of what it's going to feel like yet.
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Date: 2006-06-19 09:05 pm (UTC)He pauses, trying to think of what he was going to say.
'...I was going to say just imagine it's me, but I don't know if I want that or not. Might be worse.'
He can't think about Random actually doing it. Just can't. And explaining this next thing will be hard enough.
'If you write...'
Once again, he curses his lack of eloquence.
'...it'll be like having you for a moment and then you'll be gone again. And I'll want to know what you're doing with her but I can't stand to hear it, and it'll just make it worse. Better that you go and...fuck it, I don't know. What do you think? Won't it be worse for you to be reminded of me like that every day? Don't you want to go and keep the charade up and not get distracted?'
It could be that Random'll go and he'll wish he hadn't said that, would give anything to hear from him. But maybe not. He has no idea of what it's going to feel like yet.