He looks a little embarrassed because there are some states that you just never want to be in again, and there are some that you don't even want to think of again. His time while cursed is mostly the latter.

'I was pretty selfish. Still am, I suppose. I never really thought about what it was like for you. I tries to get you to stay away but mainly because I didn't want you seeing me like that.'

He leans over to kiss him, then settles back.

'Sorry.'