He says it quietly, and largely without emotion, because Ramon doesn't need to deal with his emotions right now. Not when he's on the rollercoaster that powerful fucking magic leaves, not to mention pushing what he had into Arithon.
"And I do know. I would never hold it against you and I will make him happy, even if it means us spending a lot of time with Arithon and Bianca. He'll have people there for him, and baby?
I need to pretend everything'll be perfect. Because if I don't, then I'm going to spend every minute expecting Dworkin and Julian to crash in here, me to get a bullet in the forehead and them dragging my boy off to his old home.
I'm tired. I'm pretending. I won't blame you if reality comes back, of course, but I really kind of need the dream right now, if you know what I mean?"
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He says it quietly, and largely without emotion, because Ramon doesn't need to deal with his emotions right now. Not when he's on the rollercoaster that powerful fucking magic leaves, not to mention pushing what he had into Arithon.
"And I do know. I would never hold it against you and I will make him happy, even if it means us spending a lot of time with Arithon and Bianca. He'll have people there for him, and baby?
I need to pretend everything'll be perfect. Because if I don't, then I'm going to spend every minute expecting Dworkin and Julian to crash in here, me to get a bullet in the forehead and them dragging my boy off to his old home.
I'm tired. I'm pretending. I won't blame you if reality comes back, of course, but I really kind of need the dream right now, if you know what I mean?"