Ramon Salazar (
latino_menace) wrote2006-01-10 06:45 pm
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OOM: Home again
It's been a very boring two nights. And annoying too, in that while he tried to while away the time by reading or finalising things for the business in his head, his brain insisted on making him remember the last time he sat in this cell.
It's not that pleasant. Not claustrophbic, like Random gets. Just uncomfortable with the reminders.
But it's over now and he's in a jaunty mood as he walks free because there's home to go to and all other unpleasant things are locked out of his head until tomorrow. For now, and the rest of the day and night, he's just going to enjoy being with Random.
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He lets the silence rest for a long while, just holding him as tight as he can. And then there's another sigh and he cuddles him even closer.
'Baby...' He stops, breaks off and tries to think of a way to word it. And briefly touches on the fact that damnit, he can't keep any secrets from this man. He supposes it comes from being that comfortable with him that emotions all show too easily.
'...I don't feel like I should, or have to, or need to.'
Pause again.
'I want to.'
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"Then we'll be together again. Whenever you want me."
An encouragement, a comfort, a promise, he can take it as he likes. But Random's there, loving and waiting.
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Another frantic search for words.
'I thought you didn't want to. You've always seemed like you didn't. And I didn't know if you were joking and...fuck it, it doesn't matter.'
He lets him go and stares at the floor, horribly embarrassed. Then offers, quietly,
'Never done it before. And you're the only person I'd let...but only if you want to.'
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He doesn't have to look up to know that.
"It didn't occur to me that you'd let me. But it's been on my mind since we talked about what you do and if it hurts or not. You've point blank asked me about it half a dozen times, and well, I sort of just shrugged. I was kidding about the sink. We've joked about it before, about what I'm doing tonight and stuff. If I'd known it made you uncomfortable, I wouldn't have."
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He doesn't look up and can't stop being embarrassed. 'I've been curious but wouldn't have asked. Just sort of came out the other night. And...it's not that...fuck, I don't know. I just never thought of it as me before. Always been in control. I'll probably always like it better. I just want to try.'
And finally, he catches Random's eye. 'Want to know what you feel.' Looks down again. 'Not tonight though. Too embarrassing now.'
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He cups Ramon's cheek with a careful, tender hand.
"Not when you're nervous like this. Some day when you're sun soaked and pleasantly drowsy and really, really happy. Because that's how I am when you touch me, and if you aren't, then it just isn't the same."
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He takes the hand, and kisses the palm softly.
'Feel like an idiot now.' He mumbles it softly and really, it's a sign of how much he loves Random that he can even say that. Because normally he'd brazen out all 'weak' emotions. Just...can't, with him.
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Random's lips trace a line across his shoulder, as he one handed pulls his shirt back.
"Well then, I'm the stupidest of them all. But I'm not doing it until you feel good."
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'You're not stupid. And I feel like an idiot for wanting to do it at all. And I feel stupid for feeling stupid about it.'
There's a quiet pause and then he adds, 'But I love you. And I do want you to. Nothing of mine I don't want to let you have.' His eyes flick up to him, suddenly amused. 'Besides, it has to feel good, right? The amount you scream, can't be a bad thing.'
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He smirks into Ramon's shoulder, then turns his face so he can see that he's joking. Just in case.
"I don't want you to know that your job is much harder and much less rewarding."
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'Ohhh, but you don't know how good you feel...' Grin. 'I'm happy with it. And with that in mind, why don't we go to bed? I think I need to show you that my job is well worth it - and anyway, you made me a promise.'
He feels better about it all now actually. At least he doesn't have to worry about it quietly any more. And he can psych himself up for it.
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"That so? Well, I concur. Lets go feel good with eachother a bit. Take me to bed, lover mine."
He hadn't been letting it bother him overly much. But now that it's out, yes, it feels better.
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His arms go round his waist and he kisses him. 'You going to let go of me so I can walk? Or do I need to carry you up there like a caveman to reassert my masculinity?'
Heh. Emo boy.
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He rolls his eyes.
"Does that come with sound effects? If so I'm most definitely walking, lover. I've never gone for the 'macho' type."
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'You don't think I'm macho?'
He's really just curious - but surprised too. He'd always thought of himself as pretty masculine. All the fighting and murdering probably.
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He wrinkles his nose. What they have here is a term confusion.
"Not like Ahnold Schwarzeneggar. Which is good because frankly that man worries me."
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Random always seems to be able to cheer him up and pull him out of a dark mood. Now Ramon just wants him.
'Now can we go to bed? Please baby?'
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"What I've been saying all along. C'mon."
On his feet, tugging Ramon up after him to head for the stairs.
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Then he's released with a whack to his butt and Ramon runs into the bathroom with a mad cackle, to escape any possible retribution there might be.
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"I'm in love with a two year old, ladies and gentlemen. Hurry up and get your ass back here. I've been waiting two sodding days."
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'Been two days for me too and I didn't have anyone to talk to to distract me either. You know how boring it is lying there awake and try desperately not to think of you spread out waiting for me?'
He crawls onto the bed with a grin, hovering over his body and leaning down to press a demanding kiss to his lips.
'Plus - if I'm two, what does that say about the man who's in love with me? You must have a lower mental age than me baby.'
He probably does actually but it hardly matters. Ramon bends again and impatiently tugs at a nipple with his teeth. 'Touch me!'
Two-year-old pout and demand right there.
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That would be Random, actually asserting something in bed and spinning Ramon with quick arms, onto his back and then sliding lower on the bed to begin unbuttoning his jeans.
"Finally, baby. Why don't you tell me exactly what you were thinking about in the cells, now, hmm?"
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'You like that game don't you? Sexy little pervert.' His voice is teasing as he tangles and twines thick blonde strands between his fingers. 'I was thinking of you, naked, waiting on the bed wearing only a tie and begging me to get over there and have you. You know, stuff like that.' It's sais casually, and in a throw away manner. Random generally asks for details but he'll have to ask for them. It's just how the game is played.
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The second word is garbled. Random is pulling Ramon's zipper down with his teeth, which makes articulation a tad awkward.
"Mmm, do go on."
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'Mmmm...naked. Only a tie, and it's loose. Sort of casually hanging, you know? And you're just there, on hands and knees on the bed and calling me over because you want to just be taken...'
He swallows at the thought because yeah, he likes that fantasy. And then he forces his voice to be casual again and says in an off-hand way,
'Was thinking about that. It was dark, I had nothing else to do, you know?'
Pause.
'Made me dream of you though. Very inconvenient, waking up in the middle of the night with an enormous hard on. Painful it was. Couldn't do a thing about it. Bastard.'
Yes. Clearly Random's fault.
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