Ramon shuts his eyes when he feels him break, just feels him rather than looking at him, aware of his body and the way the tension has changed in it, hearing the change in pitch of those gorgeous screams and holding him tight as he thrashes so that he can feel just how desperate he'd made him.

And it's good. It's better than fucking good, it's perfect and he feels so close to him right now, there's nothing anyone could give him in any universe that could get him away from Random right now.