OOM: Dinner

[latino_menace]

Ramon is so glad to get out of the museum because there's only so much culture a man can take, especially when you can't draw attention by exhibiting 'inappropriate' behaviour. Dinner's booked at an upmarket resturant a couple of miles away and he's quiet for most of the ride over. Just takes Random's hand in the back of the darkened limo and watches the city go by.

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[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"I'm not touching her and thinking of you."

He feels sick just thinking about it.

"I'm not doing anything that'll put you even remotely on the same level as you."

His fingers close around Ramon's arm.

"I'm going to write you. I won't send them, maybe, but I need to write you. It at least lets me pretend I've got someone taking care of me. Lets me remember I've got someone to come home to. That no matter how bad it is I'll have someone to go home to, who cares about me."

[latino_menace]

'...pretend you've got someone taking caring of you?'

He isn't sure what to make of that, as though Random's trying to tell him that he's being uncaring by not letting him write. It gets dismissed as paranoia after a moment, but that doesn't mean it's not still in his head.

'And I love you, not just 'care' about you.'

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"When I talk to you I can almost see you there. Like you're in the room with me. It's why I did so much, remember, when I was in the cell? I just pretend, you know?"

Eyes shut, now, he breathes out sadly.

"Compromise. I'll write you every time she gets her period again and say that it'll be at least another month, alright? But nothing else. Just telling you."

[latino_menace]

'...alright.'

He hates the idea of getting a note and knowing that he'll be without him for another month, but at least it'll give him some idea of when he'll be back, he supposes.

'And let me know you're alright. Just that. That you're not sick or anything, and...holding up. Or if you're not. OK?'

The rest can wait until he's back, he thinks.

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"Ramon."

He winces, and looks up at him.

"I'm... not really going to be alright, you understand? I'm going to survive, but I can't write you and say I say I'm fine. I'd be lying."

[latino_menace]

'Yeah.'

So you'll write and tell me you're not fine and then I'll worry and you know what, I'm not going to be fine either only I can't write to you so alright, just tell me about all of it and then you'll come back and I'll forget about it and it'll all be OK, really, no honestly, it will, don't worry about it, I'll just pretend you're not fucking someone else and it won't matter that I have to read about how upset you are about not being with me when it was your idea to leave in the first place...

'OK. Write whatever you like then. I'll read them.'

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"I'll do my very, very best."

He rolls, off, him drawing Ramon onto his side, then on top of him, wrapping legs around him.

"As quickly as possible. Kiss me? Just kiss me, please."

[latino_menace]

He's smiling by the time he finishes up on top of him and kisses him sraight away. It's almost apologetic, because of the thoughts in his head, but it's also deep and long.

'Better?'

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"Yeah."

He kisses him back, tightens his legs, and gropes on the mantle for lubricant.

"I want you to make love to me."

[latino_menace]

Well then,' he says with a small laugh, as he takes the lube from him.

'I suppose it's a good job I want to as well then.'

And he does. Has to, really. It's the only thing left.

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"Wonderful when plans like this come together" he mumbles, teasingly, loosening his legs so Ramon can have room.

"Serendipitous."

He loves him. Nothing else in his mind but that.

[latino_menace]

'Anyone would think we were made for each other,' he says solemnly, as he kisses Random's throat and flips the lid of the tube open.

He loves him too. It's not the only thing on his mind, but he does love him.

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"Oh please."

His legs spread on the bed, and his back arches slightly.

"Please, quick, lover."

[latino_menace]

He frowns in confusion at the sudden need, but doesn't question it. He just nips at his jaw and spreads lube where it's needed, kissing him again as he does.

On a whim, he kneels between his legs suddenly, looking down at him and letting his eyes travel over Random's prone body. It's thin, as it always has been. Light skin, defined muscle. He knows every part of it, but he takes the time to look properly again. Just in case.

And when he's sure that he's seen it all, he bends to place a soft kiss on his stomach, before leaning forward, taking his weight on one locked arm and gently guiding himself inside his lover's body.

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

The sudden need is a return of the panic, the leaving mantra in his head. But the touch is welcome, wanted, needed and when Ramon pushes inside him he makes a glad sound.

"Come closer."

[latino_menace]

Ramon pushes into him as far as he can, looking down at him as he moves slowly. Random always looks (beautiful) great when he does this, he'll never tire of it.

At the instruction, he nods and leans to kiss him, before laying gently down along him and covering his body.

'You look so good.'

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"You feel so perfect."

His head tips back on the sheet.

"Love you. Just. Hold on."

[latino_menace]

Lying inside him, on top of him, touching his hair and making slow love to him, Ramon thinks that Random feels pretty damn perfect himself.

'Love you too.'

Can't say it enough just now. Just can't.

'I'm not going anywhere. You know where I'll be.'

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"All that'll keep me going" he confesses, quietly, brokenly, turning his face into Ramon's shoulder.

"Have to be enough. Lover."

[latino_menace]

Ramon closes his eyes and tries to block out the thoughts of what Random's going to put himself through, how har it'll be for him. It's hard enough to deal with this when he's only thinking about himself - the thought of Random's pain as well is almost enough to make him beg him to stay.

Have to be enough.

Yeah, it will. He knows it. They have to get through it.

'Baby.' He kisses him deeply, still moving slowly. 'Write to me if you need to. Whenever you want. And don't forget that I'm waiting.'

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"Thank you."

He pulls him closer, gasping as they grind together, wrapping his legs tight around him with a small moan.

"Christ. Lover. Please."

[latino_menace]

He nibbles along his bottom lip, determined to take his time, do it properly.

'Got time. Got time baby, don't rush me, please.'

Can't stand to have this over quickly. You'll go when we're done. In the morning. Either way. Shit.

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"Kay."

He opens his mouth, licking at Ramon's bottom lip in turn, then at his jaw, kissing him.

Make me feel perfect.

[latino_menace]

You are perfect.

Ramon looks him in the eye, stroking a finger along his cheekbone, his thumb along his jaw. There are kisses to his mouth, his jaw, his chin, his eyes...slow, gentle, careful, to match his movements as he presses into him and tries to gradually take him high.

[underwater-owl.livejournal.com]

"Oh God, baby."

He tries to rock, can't, and writhes instead. Up against him, smoothly, because it feels so nice and perfect.

"So good."