And it's strange, this. How it can feel so good and so bad. Ramon...well, it's causing all the normal physical reactions. And it feels good and it's making him moan, as it should. But he can't seem to lose himself the way he normally does, can't let go and just enjoy it, make love for the fun and desire of it.

It doesn't mean Random has to know. Ramon tries to forget about it all, the knowledge that this is going to be the last time he does this in a while, the last time ever that Random will be his only. It doesn't work very well, but he still moves harder, pressing into Random and kissing him deeply, making soft noises into his mouth.